I had been toying with quitting for a while now. Something always came up. I got back from Europe and was going to quit then, but then my dog had cancer etc. There is always something. Then I got this cold/infection and even though it wasn't smoking related, when I coughed blood (Just a trace from a tear from coughing) it hit home what the future may hold for me.
Actually, now I think about it was more like 40 or more a day. Surprisingly my mood has been ok, thus far. It is FAR from the hardest thing I have ever faced in my life. That said though, it is really hard because I CAN change this. I am deliberately keeping cigarettes near me at all times, as that way I know it's my choice.
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Date: 2005-10-17 04:46 am (UTC)Actually, now I think about it was more like 40 or more a day. Surprisingly my mood has been ok, thus far. It is FAR from the hardest thing I have ever faced in my life. That said though, it is really hard because I CAN change this. I am deliberately keeping cigarettes near me at all times, as that way I know it's my choice.
I hope I can do this.